Shoes (Blog#9)

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I wore no shoes when I was in Thailand; I walked around barefoot like many others. I never craved for shoes as I was unaware of their existence. I had a rubber flip flop for special occasions such as some traditional celebrations in the camps. I watched some Hollywood movies in those community theaters but I didn't really pay attention to their shoes, and didn't really care. But once I got to Kuala Lumpur, I started to notice what others were wearing and started to look at myself. I wore old rubber flip flops that shows that I am from the country side, I had no sense of 'style', I had no looks, I had no clothes, I had no shoes... People started to mock in me, they looked at me with those discriminating eyes. Whenever I walked around the city, I had to be in constant fear of getting arrested, of getting laughed at. I was not confident, I was very beat-down and depressed.. I never had the money to buy new shoes for me, I never make enough even though I work a lot. My job paid 20 Malaysian ringgit for the whole day and it was barely enough for me get food and other necessities, my desire to buy a new pair of shoes was extinguished by the harsh reality I had. When I came to the U.S, I started working for more money and I had more money in my hands, and I started to buy more and more shoes. I have 27 pairs of shoes and I proud of my collection. I was fulfilling the dreams that I didn't have the chance to fulfill to have excessive amount of shoes. A person told me that the two most important things are a good bed and good pairs of shoes because you live half of your life walking and sleeping... It might seem strange and weird to most of you but still I like it...