Colleges (Blog #13)

           My first college admission decision was a rejection; it absolutely drained my enthusiasm and motivation. The next one was also a rejection and also the next one. I got rejected from Brandeis, Northeastern, and Boston University. The only reason why I got rejected was because of my SAT's, my SAT's were not good enough. But considering the fact that I have only been in school for five years, the SAT's were not a fair game for me. But after those two rejections, I got accepted to Wheaton College, Norton MA and Providence College in Rhode Island, I think the reason why I got accepted was because they didn't require the SAT's. I literally hate standardized testing, it's very unethical. But now I have two more schools to hear from, College of the Holy Cross and UMass Amherst. I am still nervous about them because I have done everything in my power to get to where I am, and now it's the time for me to pray and hope that good things will happen to me. It's a very scary feeling, where you hope that you get in, but there is no assurance that it will happen. I am scared of opening letters from colleges and finding out the decision. Five years ago, when I arrived in the states, I thought I will be lucky if I just graduate from high school because I thought that I will never be good enough. The reason why I thought that was because I have never been in a formal school, never had no education, never had no money. I grew up in places where people treated me like dirt and telling me that I am nothing but a loser, and the fact that I am never going to be good enough. I believed them for a while, I believed them because I hear them say the same thing over and over again. But when I started learning in the states, I realized that with that kind of mentality, I will never be able to get anywhere and succeed in life. I started to realize a lot of things, such as there is more to life than just fighting with your fists and etc. I tried really hard in school, I tried really hard so that I can prove to those people who said I am not good enough. I am very persistent in many ways, I don't give up too easily and I am going to a college in the fall!! I can not be happier than to be accepted to one of the best liberal arts colleges in the country. But we shall see, there are no limit to what the future holds for me and for you.